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[23 Dec 2006|12:58pm] |
so i haven't updated in forever.... but TODAY IS MY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!! I leave for Atlanta on the 26th it will be so much fun i can't wait. Oh... and for all those who didn't know I made Fusion winterguard and it is a BLAST.... Life for the most part right now is pretty darn amazing.
MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!!!!!!!!!!
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marching band has begun.....so i think it is easy to say i am, for the most part, HAPPY!!!
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[22 Jul 2006|10:50pm] |
so i guess i should update this thing......
went to Krystina's grad party today....OMG what a great time...put a bunch of theatre kids together and things get funny and dirty....I had the best time i have had in so long so many great memories...
-deliciously squishy m and m's.
-me being a human coloring book.
-random singing.
-volleyball.
and the list goes on....
other than that though nothing really new. band camp starts in a few weeks and im really excited i just hope that i dont have a huge probably with my knee although as of now it looks like i probably will. nothing really planned till then so call if you want to hang out....
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WOOOOHOOOO summer 06 has officially begun. I am really excited. I hope this is the best summer yet. I got home from ohio with my youth group on sunday. I had a really good time and it was a great way to kick off the summer. I dont really have any major plans so everyone should call to hang out because i already miss everyone. I got my report card yesterday in the mail.....my parents are proud of me. it feels good they thought with everything i was doing my grades would slip but ha proved them wrong in big bold letters GPA 4.0. so call if you want to do something this summer other than that im not in the mood to update more than that.
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[14 May 2006|08:53pm] |
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ok so MAJOR CHANGES are now being made. summer is a month away and i am so excited but i am definatly changing so much about myself and my life before summer hits. First im through with caring about everyone. If you treat me like crap when im nice to you and you just dont understand that im trying to be nice and all that whatever your out of my life. it is people like you that make me upset and sad and moody and rude to the people that really care about me so i am through with dealing with you. second i am going to workout more. I used to workout all the time and then i stopped and i really need to get back to it. this wont be too hard since swim starts tomorrow. Third i need to look on the brighter side of things more often. This weekend i realized how incredibly lucky i am whether i realize it all the time or not. Im alive and even though at times i think of that as a curse it really is a gift. I have accomplished so much in my life and i am only getting started. So even though it isnt new years or anything like that. These are for sure that things that i am commiting myself to working on to make my life better and try to make me a more positive easy to get along with person. Im so tired of being negative and upset all the time so hopefully that all stops today.
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[20 Apr 2006|04:45pm] |
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i thought things were starting to make sense. It seemed like i was finally understanding things again yesterday. I dont know what happened but i know i dont feel like i understand it anymore. i feel like im in the ocean and a huge wave comes and pushes me down and when i finally get up another one just comes along and pushes me down again. i cant deal with it. i just want things to be ok again but im getting that feeling that they never will be. is it so much to ask to actually understand whats going on and to not have the pain come back all the time. i try so hard to be nice to everyone to make people feel better and then in return i just get treated like crap by certain people. Then i get told well just stop being friends stop carring. I wish people could understand its not that easy yes i did it for one person but the other one i cant. Im tired of always being so negative but it just gets to the point where i dont know what to do. im so afraid right now and i think if to many more things come crashing down i just might break down and i really dont want to. i just dont know what to do. any advice would be greatly appreciated.
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i hate when.......
-people lie to me
-people dont talk to me for no reason at all
-people pretend they know things that they really don't
-people are complete jerks
ok now thats enough of that.....
Easter is Sunday! i love this time of year the weather gets nicer and i feel so much deeper in my faith.
i wish i had answers for what is going on with me lately but i just dont.
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What in the world is wrong with me?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!
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So i feel amazing right now. This is the begining of the new me. The first day where i feel like i have a goal a mission. I love having the feeling that i know what i am working for i know what i want. I have decided what i want to do and what school i want to go to. Now i just have to work my butt off to make it happen to make my dream since i was like 3 to come true. Thats all i just thought you all would like to know.
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so i haven't updated in over a month just because ive been so busy so here it goes.
PLAY- The play is over now we had closing night on saturday. Im pretty sad to see it end to tell you the truth im going to miss getting to see everyone and hang out all the time. I had so much fun working on the play even though a lot of times i was upset or angry or whatever the overall experience was amazing.
SCHOOL- school has been nothing but annoying lately im just tired of being there this happens every year it gets close to summer and summer is all i want i guess its pretty much only because i am doing so much in the summer.
FRIENDS- To all of my friends which is pretty much anyone reading this because if you werent my friend i dont know why you would waste your time reading my thoughts. You are all amazing and i just want to say thanks for putting up with me lately i know i havent been the easiest person to be around all the time.
TRACK- im still going to run as of right now but i dont know if i will be able to keep running all season due to my stupid foot. I hope i can though i love running track no matter how much i may complain.
CHANGE- i have a lot of things that im looking to change about myself in the next month or two. Im tired of always being the one who's upset the one who feels like running in a corner away from everyone and drowning herself in tears. i have so much to be thankful for and so i definatly need to change that about myself. There are also other things that i need to change but i dont feel like listing them all on here.
well i think that is just about it i dont know what else to write so i guess that will be all for now. i like comments so please leave some
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people say life isnt easy but i had no clue it would be this hard....here i go again i cant take this anymore....
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ok so im hoping all of you wonderful people can help me....i need to get out and have fun so i can quit worrying about certain things...we have this entire week coming up off and i need some plans...please leave me comments with ideas on what i can do...i will love you forever...thank you that is all
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rent is playing at the dollar show im a loser and havent seen it yet.... who wants to go with me....i will love you forever....
snoball= a pretty amazing night...i love getting all dressed up and then having people tell me i look beautiful it makes me so happy....
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i am getting really bad at updating this thing.... i just really dont seem to have time anymore. O well i have time now so here it goes.
saturday had an amazing time at the winterguard competition. Went to see noel and eric and everyone else on the guard just cuz thats how much i love them all. Sam came too and we had a really good time. Got to see my cousin there too which was awesome because i really missed her. Fusion took 4th out of 14 and did incredible.
sunday went to briannas house for a day/night of nothing but movies and being lazy...it was a very well needed day of relaxation and keeping my mind off stuff.
coming to keeping my mind off stuff. I have decided i really need to stop worrying about things. it doesnt help it makes me feel bad i get crabby meaning i say mean things not meaning to making others feel bad. its no good for anyone. People look at life so positivly even if they have the worlds worst life. Why is it that my life is ok and i cant always be positive. I mean seriously im living that should count for something. all the amazing things i got to do and try and experience because i got to live. it truely is amazing and yet i am so negative. so this is my new goal.....be more positive.
thats all for now.....
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so ive decided to make a new years resolution this year and no matter how hard it is for me i am going to stick to it. I am done letting people control my life. If they want to bring themselves down good for them im not going to let them drag me down too. I love how for like the past 2 months ive been all messed up all because of 2 peoples idiotic choices. it makes me really mad and that is why this is officially going to be my new years resolution. I can't wait for the new year so i can just put this year behind me.
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a lot has been going on lately... I wish i could say that all of it has been good but unfortunatly it hasnt. I've really messed some things up lately and yet now there is nothing i can do about any of it. Some of you know all that has been going on others dont. either way it doesnt matter anymore cuz im done...im just done caring about anything anymore anytime i try to care and be nice it seems like it blows up in my face. so thats all.....
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so as most of you all know its the time where wnic plays christmas music for the next 2 months. starbucks goes to the red cups, and everyone else starts putting up christmas lights. soon we will be decorating tress and having dinners with family. and i pose a challange, to not only better you, but better others. becuase this season is all about friends and family, try repatching a lost friendship, admit you were wrong to someone, or say your sorry. and if it doesnt work you know you have tried.i know i am going to do this. so just try this if you will, and who knows it may be the best thing that has happend to you in a long time and making your holiday season that much brighter. and if you chose to do this, please comment. so we can all see who cares about people.
while we are on the topic of christmas thought i would put in my favorite christmas song that someone just recently reminded me of.
Children, sleeping
Snow is softly falling
Dreams are calling
Like bells in the distance
We were dreamers
Not so long ago
But one by one we
All had to grow up
When it seems the magic slipped away
We find it all again on Christmas day
Believe in what your heart is saying
Hear the melody that's playing
There's no time to waste
There's so much to celebrate
Believe in what you feel inside
And give your dreams the wings to fly
You have everything you need
If you just believe
Trains move quickly
To their journey's next
Destinations
Of where we begin again
Ships pull,
Sailing
Far across the sea
Trust in starlight
To get where they need to be
When it seems that we have lost our way
We find ourselves again on Christmas day
Believe in what your heart is saying
Hear the melody that's playing
There's no time to waste
There's so much to celebrate
Believe in what you feel inside
And give you dreams the wings to fly...
You have everything you need
If you just believe...
If you just believe...
If you just believe...
If you just believe...
Just believe...
Just believe...
nothing else real exciting going on...leave me comments i love getting them...
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i will NEVER understand anything that happens in this world....
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My world is falling apart....and there is nothing i can do to stop it and that scared me tremendously....Why are things so hard...and why do i never understand anything that happens to me. For once i wish my life would just make sense. I have no clue what to even do anymore.
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